A few weeks ago was my graduation. Now I am officially out of school, even though i was barely in school. But i found a way around that. I paid the principal money, and gave her a justin bieber picture that was signed. And more importantly me and justin are on our way back from Hawaii. Actually we are heading towards the hospital because Kennedy is having her baby. We have been at Hawaii for 3 months. And Kennedy is only 8 1/2 months pregnant but i guess the baby still wants to come out today.These last few months have been the best few months of my life. We did so much different things. But we mainly went swimming and talked. Lately i haven't been feeling so good. And Ive been freezing! As soon as we arrived at the hospital i ran to Kennedy's room. Its been another two days since i found out she was in labor. When i walked into her room she was holding her baby. I walked over to her, and looked at her baby. Kennedy smiled at me. I smiled back. " Hi....." She said. I smiled again. " Hey...." I said very gently. " Do you want to hold her?" she asked me. I nodded and grabbed the baby from Kennedy. She was beautiful! " Whats her name?" I asked her. " Mackenzie." She said to me. " Thats beautiful Kenna." I told my sister. Mackenzie was sleeping very peacefully in my arms. I sat next to Kennedy for a long time holding her baby and talking about our trip. When Kennedy's visits were over i went to the house to see my sisters. They were building. I walked up to them. " Whatcha guys doing." I asked whiled watching them. " Building a nursery onto Kennedy's room. " Morgan said. Then me and Justin ended up helping them build for hours. All that was left was painting and moving furniture into the nursery. Which me and Justin didnt mind doing, since we haven't been around. The next day i woke up laying next to Justin in Kennedy's room.... with a paint brush in my hand. I sat up and dropped the brush. Then woke Justin up. Then i started to feel sick. I got up and ran into the bathroom. And threw up in the toilet, Justin came into the bathroom and stood behind me, very worried. I finally finished and turned around to him. He hugged me. What is wrong with me! Ive been like this for about a week or more. I heard the front door open from downstairs. Its Kennedy and Mackenzie! I let go of Justin and ran downstairs to say hi to them. " Welcome home honey!" I yelled while going downstairs towards them. I took Mackenzie from Kennedy while Kennedy and my other sisters went up stairs. I carried Mackenzie up the stairs in her car seat. I put Mackenzie on Kennedy's bed while my other sisters were looking at the nursery we stayed up all night making. " Aww thanks guys. This is awesome. " Kennedy said. I sat on the bed with Mackenzie and waited for Kennedy. The nursery was all ready for Mackenzie. It had a crib, changing table, play pin, dresser, and lots of toys too. Kennedy finally came over to me and picked up her daughter then sat down next to me. " So do you like being a mom or are you wishing you never met Kevin?" Morgan asked. I glared at Morgan. She stuck her tongue at me. She shouldn't remind her of Kevin at all! " Actually i couldn't be any happier. Mackenzie is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I mean yeah i wanted to be married first but now i don't think it could of wanted it any other way. " she said. Oh no. Im feeling sick again. I got up and ran to the bathroom again and threw up. The bathroom door was locked so i can finally figure out what is wrong with me. After i was done i went over to the sink and dabbed my face with some cold water. Then washed my hands. When i looked for a paper towel there wasn't any. So i looked under the sink in the cupboards and saw a pregnancy test. I grabbed it. What if im pregnant. I asked myself. I mean it would explain why i have been feeling like this. I stared at the box knowing that my sisters and Justin were outside waiting for me. I decided to just check to see if i was. So i took the test. I waited for my results for about 5 minutes. Then it beeped. I walked over to it then looked at the results. Oh god! Im pregnant! i stepped back and felt like i was about to pass out. Oh god, Justin is going to freak out. I mean even im freaking out. And im not ready to be a mom, i mean i guess i was kind of a mom to Morgan, Dayna and Phoebe.... Not the point! I feel disgusting. I decided to take a shower to clean off and relax a little. How am i suppose to tell justin that im having a baby. And what if he doesn't want it. What if he leaves me because of the baby! After i got out and rapped up in a towel, i went and looked at my self in front of a mirror. And imagined my self, getting fat like Kennedy. Then i heard a knock at the door. I jumped. " Honey, are you ok." Justin asked. I relaxed a little. " Um yeah im fine i guess." I told him. A few minutes later i heard another knock. " Ciara?" Kennedy asked me. I could tell my sister were next to Kennedy outside the bathroom door. I finally got the courage to open the door. I just stared at them. " Ciara are you ok?" Dayna and Morgan asked me at the same time. I didnt say anything. I finally looked back up at them, then looked Kennedy right in her eyes. " Looks like your not the only Matthew sister that is having a baby." I told them. Kennedy had a surprised expression on her face. while my other sisters were very confused. Kennedy looked at my sisters with a smile on her face. " Do you get it? Do you get it! Ciara's pregnant!" Kennedy yelled then hugged me. Then soon my other sisters did too. I pushed them off relizing justin wasnt in the room. " Where's Justin?" I said in a panic voice. " He went downstairs to make you some tea to make you feel better." Phoebe said. I hate tea. I stormed out of the room and ran downstairs. I looked in the kitchen first. Not there. I looked in the dinning room. Wasnt there again. I ran into the living room. He was sitting on the couch next to his ex girlfriend with a child on his lap. I slowly walked into the room. " Daddy lets play!" The child said to Justin. " Justin whats this? " I asked him. " Umm.... well..." He started. " This is his child. " Jaime said. I looked right at justin. " Really?" I said very mad. Justin smiled and tried to pull the kid off of him. I stormed out of the house and onto the porch. " Wait Ciara!" I heard from inside the house. I continued to walk down the driveway. Justin came running out of the house with his son, that he never told me about! " Ciara please wait! Let me explain!" Justin yelled from behind me. I turned around to look at him. " Ok justin then explain. Because last time i checked i was suppose to know everything about you considering we are married!" I yelled at him. " Ok i know and i understand but..... " He started but i interrupted him." Justin no you don't understand because im pregnant! " I yelled at him. He was in complete shock. " I don't care if your....... ! Wait your pregnant!? As in having my child?" he asked. " Its about 2 months but um.." I started but he interrupted me. " Wait you didnt tell me for 2 months?!" He yelled. " Justin i didnt know for 2 months!" I yelled back. Jaime came outside. " Is there something wrong?" Jaime said. Justin held his head with his hand. " Yes!" Justin yelled. "NO!" I yelled back. Jaime just looked at Justin. " OH can you watch Lucas for a week since i have a interview." Jaime asked. Justin looked at Jaime. "Sure." He said. I rolled my eyes and ran into the house. I started to clean dishes to keep my mind off of everything that is going on right now. About 5 minutes later i heard Justin come in from probably talking to his dumb ass ex girlfriend. " Ciara we need to talk." He said as he entered the kitchen. " Seems like you'd rather talk to Jaime then your own wife." I said sarcastically. He glared at me. " Ciara....." he said then sat down on the couch. " Fine.... we can talk." I said and dropped the dishes into the sink, then went into the living room and sat on the couch that was far away from him. " Ciara i would of told you about Lucas but i didnt think it was all that important. I mean i never see him, and this is the first time Ive seen him in a few years. And now that your pregnant that changes things a lot." HE said to me. " Really, so if it changes things then you wont see Lucas or Jaime ever again after Lucas leaves right?" I asked. " Ciara he is my son! And i do mean it when i say things change but not to that point. I want to be in his life. And ive missed 6 years of his life, im not doing that with this baby." He said. I thought about what he said for a minute then finally spoke. " Well you will have no choice if i tell you to leave. " I said to him. " Ciara what are you talking about?" he asked. " I mean i need some space for a while away from you." I said to him. " Ok for how long?" Justin asked. " Im not sure but you go find out where you can live and ill do the honors in getting the things you will need." I said to him. He nodded then left. After he left is when i realized that he left Lucas with me. Lucas came galloping down the stairs on a fake horse. he sat on the couch finally after running threw the house for hours. I decided to take advantage of it and turn on some cartoons for him while i did laundry. I carried the basket of justins clothes into the living room and put them on the couch. i looked over at the t.v and a justin bieber song was playing. And Lucas was singing along. I smiled and watched him. I sat down next to him after sorting laundry. ' Hello." Lucas said to me with a huge smile on his face. He looked so much like his dad. ' Hiya." I said. It felt weird to have a step son i never even knew about, while im pregnant. " do you like your daddy's music?" I asked him. He smiled. "Yeah! When i grow up i want to be just like him." He said. I smiled. " Hey Lucas want some lunch? Im going to McDonald's!" I said. He got up and ran over to me. " yeah!" He yelled. " Ok lets go." I said and we went to the car.
When we got back Lucas ran up to the door and waited fro me. I unlocked the house and went inside. I looked in the living room and Justin was sitting on the couch. I dropped my stuff off then went into the living room. "Where were you guys?" He asked in a mad tone. " Oh we went to McDonald's. " I said and smiled. " Why?" He almost yelled. " Because we were hungry?" I asked. " What ever happened to Ciara not wanting to mother my kid. " He asked once again in a mad tone.. " Um justin i never said that?!" I began to get upset. " Well you might as well. I mean you hate anything and everything that has to do with me and my past." He said. " Justin i do not!" i yelled. " Sure seems like it." He said. " Justin i care about you and i just want to know about your past, not have to discover it when i least expect it. I just want us to be honest with each other. " I said. " Ok well then be honest with me. Do you still want some space from me and Lucas?" He asked. " You. Yes. Lucas. No." I said. He glared at me. " Ok fine yes." I said. " Ok well then we are out of here. We are staying at Johnathon's house fro a while. Until you want us back." Justin said. " K." I said. Justin then grabbed Lucas and left. 2 weeks past very fast for me. I was finally looking pretty fat. And everything is quiet. Because Kennedy and Mackenzie moved into there own apartment. Morgan, Dayna and Phoebe moved into there own apartment too. So i had the house to myself. I grabbed a cup of coffee this morning then turned on the t.v and layed on the couch. I was watching the news. Then suddenly a phone began to ring. And it wasn't mine. I looked at the table and went to go see what it was. I picked up the phone. Its Justin's phone, he must of left it here. I looked at the text message from brook. " Hey im in town, i thought you would want to know since the last time. It was nice. I love the break up sex." the text said. I dropped the phone. Oh my god, Justin is cheating on me! And break up sex? what the hell is that about! Thats it! He is obviously not a part of my life anymore. Why did he marry me if he was still sleeping with a dog! I want to know what is going on with him. I mean would he seriously cheat on me? And even if he was i don't have the time for this, Im kind of pregnant! I went upstairs to finally gets some sleep. Since i probably wont get any in a few days.
Its been about 2 months since Ive last talked to Justin. I actually have enjoyed the whole time here, by myself. But the only bad part is that im like huge. Im 4 months pregnant almost 5. Next month i can finally find out if its a boy or a girl. Im really hoping its a girl. And whats really weird is that im actually really excited and happy that im having a baby. I just was hoping that it wouldn't turn out this way. But it is still what i wanted, just not the way i wanted it. I heard a knock on the front door. I quickly got out of bed and ran downstairs to answer the door. I finally reached the door and opened it. " Hey ..... you said you would...." Justin started but i slammed the door in his face before he could finish. I walked to the kitchen and began to make breakfast, and tried to ignore the door bell ringing over and over. Finally it stopped. " hey..." Kyle said when he answered the front door.( He's been living with me to help me out.) " Hi kyle what are you doing here at my wife's house." I heard justin say to kyle. " Um actually its ex wife's house soon." Kyle said. Thats when i stopped cooking and jogged over to the front door. " Honey, your here." Kyle said and smiled. " Honey!?" Justin almost yelled. " OK! Kyle can you please go upstairs and wait for me there?" I asked him. " Sure." Kyle said then went upstairs. " Are you sure the baby's mine because right now i don't know." Justin said and rolled his hand through his hair. " Justin im pretty sure your the father." I said to him. He rolled his eyes. " And whats up with the "ex wife" thing?" he began to yell. " What do you think." I said. " Wait your divorcing me!" He yelled. " Well it sounds mean when it comes from you, but yeah i am." I said. " Ciara!" He yelled. "Oh hold that thought..." I said then went to go get his cell phone. " Here. Next time you wanna cheat you should keep your phone with you." I said. He looked at his phone. " OH god. Brooookkkk....." He whispered. " Yeah, don't worry im sure you will get better at it. Just not while your dating me." I said then shut the door. " Ok who's next." I said.
About 10 minutes later the door bell rang again. I got up to answer the door once again. Abre was standing in the front of the door. " Hey Ciara..... wow you look f...." Abre started then looked at me. " Fantastic!" she said. " Nice save what do you want." I said. " OH right...... umm.... " she started. " Um i cant remember why im here." Abre said. I rolled my eyes. " OH wait i remember is Justin here?" Abre asked me. " NO? why?" I asked her. " Oh because i was suppose to go over there and help him with Lucas." Abre said. ' Why are you helping him?" i asked quickly. " Oh because truthfully i want to marry him and become famous for marrying him and probably send the kid to boot camp." Abre said. My mouth dropped open. " Are you ok." Abre asked. " Oh yea...... Peachy..." I almost yelled. Abre smiled. " Well i should go so i can find him. Do you know where he might be?" Abe asked. " NO? wait yes. He's living at Johnathon's house. " I told abre. She smiled then left. I shut the front door then began to plan the baby shower.
Then next morning i walked down the stairs and saw Kyle on the couch watching T.V. I walked right pass him. " Morning Kyle." I said to him on my way to the kitchen. " Oh hey. Ciara wait come here and look at this." Kyle said. I ran over to him quickly. " What! Whats wrong!" I yelled. " Check this out!" Kyle said then turned the volume up on the t.v then looked at me. " Ciara Matthews is now pregnant with Justin Bieber's baby. And they are split up. Abre and justin are now the hot couple of the year. People are saying Ciara only dated justin for fame and to have his baby. And now we have proof that it is true." the reporter said. " Ciara is the type of girl that wants fame and will do anything to get that, even if it means dating Justin Bieber. She ruined my life growing up. And she stole Justin away from me." Jaime said. ' Are we talking about Ciara.... Or Justin. Can i talk about Justin?" Brook said. " Talk about Ciara." the reporter said. " Ok fine. Ciara is a complete Bitch. She yells at everyone and she is really bossy. And one year she ruined Justin's car. And im sure she doesn't even love him." Brook said. After brook got off of t.v kyle turned off the t.v. My face was so red. "Ciara?" Kyle asked. " Son of a ..." I started. " Ding dong!" the door bell rang. I rolled my eyes, then walked over to the door. When i opened the door justin was standing in front of the door. I opened the door farther and stood very far away from him. I pointed my finger at him. " You stay away from me!" I yelled at him. He threw his hands up at me. " Ciara? what are you doing? I wont hurt you?!" He yelled back following me into the house while i was backing up. " Bull shit!" I yelled then continued to back up into the kitchen. " Ciara whats wrong with you?!" Justin yelled back. " Um maybe the fact that your girlfriend and ex girlfriend dissed me on live t.v!" I yelled. " What are you t.... Ohhh that, Ciara its just rumors. They mean nothing." He said back. " Oh yeah they mean nothing! It was on live television justin! Millions of People are watching it right now! And thanks to you im some bitch that is using you!" I yelled. " Ciara no your not!" Justin said again. " Just stay away from me! I don't want you any where near me." I yelled then ran into my bedroom and shut the door. I stayed in my room the rest of the day. And weeks, and eventually months. I would only come out for food. I decided i wanted to come out of my room and try it. Im now 7 months pregnant. I swear im a new world record of fatness. " Time to call quiness. Kyle knocked on at he door. " Uh Ciara there is people every where wanting you. They are screaming your name. And yelling lots of different things too." Kyle said from outside my room. I got up and ran to the front door. When i opened the front door ever paparazzi you could think of were here. " Ciara how does it feel to be the most hated person on earth." One person said. " Ciara why did you use justin?" another said. " use? wait...." I started. " Ciara you are never gonna be anything but a user!" Someone said. " What are you going to do with the baby?" some one else said. " Ciara who else are you dating?" one person said. " Hey! Hey! People get a life, and stop interrupting hers!" Kyle said then pulled me away from the door and closed it. ' Oh my god! Why are they here!" I yelled while shutting every curtain in the house. " I don't know. Maybe because people saw the interview with Jaime and Brook." kyle said. " I have my baby shower today. How is everyone suppose to come here when everyone is around my house. " I said then heard a knock at the door. " I hope that's justin!" I yelled then picked up a bat. Kyle took it away from me. When i opened the door my sisters and all my friends were here.
The baby shower was going great. I was smiling and laughing. I was having a great time. When i looked on the kitchen table there was so many presents that i don't think i will have room for. Every one that was here was my sisters, my friends, and my friends husbands. And of course kyle. Then the door rang. I went over to the door and opened it. Justin. " So when were going to tell me you were having a baby shower?" He asked. I smiled. " Probably when it was over." I said. " Haha very funny." Justin said. " What do you want justin?? Because last time i checked i kicked you out." I said. " Well i wanted to come to the baby shower." He said. " Well Justin your no invited." I said. " Ciara can you do me a favor." He asked. " Slam the door in your face! Sure?" I yelled then slammed the door in his face. Then continued to party. When i was dancing and hanging out with Roxy i heard the door open. " Ciara we need to talk. Please." Justin said as he came in the house. " wait in line." I said. " Ciara now." He said and pulled me into the kitchen. " Justin!" I yelled and pulled away from him. " Ciara im sorry about not telling you about brook. But there's nothing going on between us. I promise. And i messed up with Lucas so please don't make me mess up with this one." Justin said. " Justin i really don't want to do this right now." I said then walked back into the party room.
The next morning i woke up on the couch. When i was finally awake enough to know what i was doing i turned on the t.v. I started flipping threw the channels, then saw the news. While watching the news i began to drink ice water. Then i heard talking about justin. " Justin Bieber is now taken. He is now engaged!" the reporter said. I spit out my ice water everywhere and started to choke. " Wait.... engaged!" I yelled at the t.v. " Abre smith was seen waling around town with Justin and wearing a engagement ring. Stay tuned for their wedding announcement." the announcer said. I turned the t.v off and stood up. " Thats it! Im done!" i yelled then ran up stairs, grabbed a box and packed up all the stuff that was Justin's then threw it in the box. When i was done putting his stuff in the box i grabbed the divorce paper Ive had then put it in the box too. Then i took off my wedding ring and put it on top of everything else. After i was done i ran downstairs and put it out on the porch, considering he always comes to talk to me. So i figured he would see the box. after i out the box on the porch i still continued to find things that were his so i keep walking out on the porch to add things to the box. While i was on the porch adding things i heard footsteps on the porch, when i looked up, Justin was walking up the porch. I dropped the things in the box then got in the house and shut the door then locked it and went to watch t.v. Then not even 5 minutes later i heard the door start to turn. Then it opened. I jumped up off the couch and held a spoon at him. " How? why? when? what are you doing here!" I yelled at him. " Ciara relax. We don't want to drop that calf right there. Why is my stuff out on the porch?" Justin asked me. " Because Ive made up my mind." I told him. " What is that suppose to mean." he asked again. " Have you looked at what else is in the box besides your stuff?" I asked him. He shoke his head. " Why should I?" He asked again. " Find out for your self." I told him. he looked in the box then looked at the divorce paper, then read it to him self. " Wait divorce paper?! What do you expect me to do with it?" He yelled. " Actually i expect you to sign it." I told him. He shoke his head. " NO!" he yelled then was about to rip it up. " Wow.wow. What are you doing ." I yelled. " Im not making the same mistake again i refuse!" He yelled then ripped it up. I held my head with my hand then sat down. " Justin.... if you don't want the same mistake , you should of signed it." I said calmly. " Im not going to make the same mistake of loosing the ones i love." He said while still standing at the door way. " Justin i don't want to play games anymore. Im 19 and happen to be pregnant. Im done. I just want a relationship that i can trust, and know that will last. Not some game that goes back and forth, to see who will win. Im tired and it seems like every girl gets to play your stupid game. When their has to be one winner." I said to him, and not even looking at him. When i looked up at him he looked back at me then began to leave with just on word. " Fine." He said then left.
Then next day i woke up and got a text from Kyle. " Hey meet me at the park." It said. I got up and got dressed then went to the park, still pregnant. When we got to see each other we pretty much talked then had break fest. Then suddenly when we were talking i heard " Kyle can you please leave." Justin said from behind us. Kyle looked at me then looked at justin." Um sure!" He said then left towards the beach. I looked down at the ground and shook my head since Kyle left me. Justin just stood in front of me waiting for me to talk to him. " Ciara you say your done playing games. So am I. And you want to know who wins my game, you will always win my game. I made a mistake and i want to fix it. I love you and wish you would forgive me. " Justin said finally. " Uh Justin.... If you say your done with games, then you should re think because a new game just started. Im in labor." I told him. After i said that he helped me into his car and took me to the hospital. When we finally got to the hospital and began to go into labor my sisters came into the room and surrounded me. " Ciara are you in labor?!" Dayna yelled. " You think!!!!" I yelled back. " Ok Ciara breathe." The doctor said.
5 hours later i was finally holding my baby boy. Justin was sitting next to me, looking at his son. And all my sisters were around my hospital bed too. " Ciara what are you going to name him?" Kennedy whispered to me while the baby sleeps. I looked at Justin. " Whatever we decide." I said to justin. " I like the name Jake." Justin said. ' Then his name is Jake Drew." I said. " So what now." Morgan asked. " Now our life has officially begun." I said
Over the past 9 years have been very interesting. And truthfully it has just begun. And now that i have done it all in the past 9 years i have learned so much, and been through a lot, but Ive also realized that all of this has made me stronger as a person, as a wife, as a sister and as a mother. I now have 2 kids of my own and Justin's son that i think of my own. All of my sister finally felt loved when they all became married and had a family of there own. And i had the girl Ive always wanted, then named her Emma Lynn. Even though my story has ended it is not the end of my Matthews line.
Love always
Ciara
